May 9, 2011 - Kobie

Kobie through Marilyn....

(10 years old..  just crossed)  She’s very light and floaty… came right towards her and flopped on back and rolled over and popped back up. She loved rolling over and would do it often.  She’s very light  (light is good) and it’s a good feel and good spirit.

She knows that it would have been rehab her whole life.  It must have been her time, I said…  “Well yes – it was my time but I didn’t know it was my time until it was my time but then of course it was my time because I left.”  (that’s a Kobie logic and statement)

She’s good… she’s good where she is.  She has a sense of freedom and relief because she can roll over, hop up, lots of chasing games.  Looks like she’s with Ari or another dog that looks like Ari and they are running and chasing and rolling. 

(What was her relationship with Olivia?) First thing she said was that Olivia is coming soon.  She had to stay behind to keep the energy smooth.  Kobie’s exit was so dramatic and traumatic but Olivia’s crossing will be much calmer but she had to stay behind to relax the energy after Kobie’s crossing.

(Anything else she wants to tell me?)  Planting flowers…are there special flowers that you plant.  (Marilyn asked)  (yes) She says you’re supposed to plant the flowers this year.  (She’s next to Ari on the hill and I’m going to get some colorful pinwheels and put there)  Marilyn said -

She has tears of sadness, joy, compassion and how nice it is of you to remember her.

(Ask her if she remembers my mother)  She remembers your mom…  she knew her then, she knows her now.

What Ari has to Say.

Conversations with Marilyn concerning his health.

….Whole back end wobbly not losing use of only one leg but actually a leg and a half. Right leg can’t support and he can’t compensate. When he shifts his weight he falls over.
…. No headaches but dizziness.
…. Is your time up? He won’t answer it because he doesn’t want to think about it. He's in denial. He knows he’s not making it easier for me or him. He likes being a dog and doing things with me and sometimes being a clown. He’s been with me many times before… cliffs, centuries ago, involved once, dogs together (street dogs). What can I do? Love him and hold him.
….Stomach bloated but dry mouth which is why he drinks so much water. He feels kind of spacey or tipsy. He sees his mental capacities leaving but not dementia. Something physical pressing … most likely brain tumor.
…. He hates putting me through this and he wonders how I’ll ever survive without him to keep the girls in line. Loves me and hates the way he has to pee. (squatting)
…. Not long… 0-6 weeks. Very hard to say…

Kobie’s report (the caretaker – empathetic)

· Ari vomits in the back yard in the corner and doesn’t want to tell me.
· He’s trying to be strong and he’s not the dog he used to be and it’s sad.

Olivia’s report (into herself)

· Knows nothing she is so itchy. Give her drugs.(she says). it’s maddening…

Brita’s report (matter of fact)

· She knows that he’s not long for this world. Animals die. (Not rude but a reflective statement)
· Nothing she can do so she’s accepting it.· She’s sad that I’m sad and everything is heavy around here now.

Teddy

· He’s (Teddy) everywhere….everything’s fine….comfortable…at ease…· Fine with his resting place
· Ari’s coming soon but that’s ok since everyone gets along – they were together before.
· He’s watching all of us and he’s everywhere.